Shallow

 Miss those tree planting days

When peace and joy come in different ways

The smell of soil, the autumn's breeze

Where I let go of reality, setting it free

I'm currently writing this while listening to Distant World CD from Chrisvensia. Yes. Distant World. FINAL FANTASY SONGS! I sweat, FF is like one of the best memories of my childhood. Something that's worth remembering about, something I feel proud of playing. Though I only play like FFV (I think) VII, VIII, IX, and lastly was X. I did play FF tactics on Gameboy though haha. My favourite gotta be VIII and IX. X is nice too, but the first 2 are just special. Somehow.

I always feel sad whenever I listen to Final Fantasy songs. A sense of sentimentality, and a tinge of the good days of my childhood, the songs of Nobuo Uematsu, everything just fits in so nicely. And that's how I feel sad. And the sad thing is I don't know where did my songs go to! I used to have a bunch of FF songs in my computer. I think it's in my computer but it's.. Practically unused now. I hope can retrieve back the stuff I got there heh.

Anyway today was a normal Tuesday I suppose. What an unlucky morning where I lost my  phone's bottom cover! The one used to cover the simcard and SD. And thanks tot hat my phone wasn't functioning, it always asks me to restart and so on. So today after school I went to HTC Help Centre straight ahead (I was planning to run in school :/) And yup got a replacement now.

Vithya has been sick for the past two days, she's coming back tomorrow though! I hope you're feeling better already today so that you've the health and strength to come tomorrow hehe.

Today I just realised how shallow minded people can be. How dare you judge other people without even knowing the real fact. Nevermind, Karma will do its job.

But anyway at the end of the day, I went home and I put down my bag, changed and went right away for a run! It was like 7.15 PM by the time I ran. And so the sky was dark and it feels good to run at night, along the car lights and under the street lamps! Ran to Holland and back, it really feels good hehe. Seriously can't wait for Sundown now :)

And I cooked the fluffiest omelette I've ever cooked! So fluffy and nice, with tomatoes :D Damn I hope I can maintain the quality of my future omelettes heh. It's pretty hard to cook an egg. Fluffy and nice. Most of the time my eggs are either normal, ruined, and destroyed haha. Even my chorizo Spanish omelette wasn't as fluffy as today's one! So I'm proud heh :P

Ah cause today Vithya was still on MC, Caihong was kind enough to accompany me for lunch! I was just going back to my office when I met her and she asked me if I wanna go lunch together. Though she didn't eat as she ate ice cream already hahaha. Nevertheless thank you for your company and it feels good to know I have someone who shares the same thought as me! Apparently I'm not alone. And it feels good to know that :)

Yeah... I guess that's all for this Tuesday. What a day! Haha. See you then :) Going for tomorrow's LEAP Nepal and Kili sharing! Yep, I WANT to be the next one going next year :D

C'est la vie, la vie continue

Happy Mother's Day

 Inner Mongolia, oh Inner Mongolia

How much I miss you

Well first of all wishing all the beautiful mothers around the world a Happy Mother's Day! Well... Theoretically, it's not Mother's Day in Indonesia so... But who cares, doesn't need a Mother's day to tell our mums how much we love them and how wonderful they are! So to my mum, I love you! Hehe. Well... It's very hard for me, well I'm a guy, to say that to my mum like suddenly. I think if I do that she'll be damn shocked too. Hehe.

Today was another unfruitful Sunday :( Sigh, again I woke up late! Can't believe that I woke up late again even though I set like 3 alarms haha. I did wake up at 9 though, then at 10. And I told myself lets wake up. I sat up straight on my bed, only knowing to wake up again at 1130 :/ Oh well so I just woke up and I went to Clementi to get lunch and to go to Popular to get my pen refill cause it's empty heh.

I have to get used to eating lunch alone every Sunday now. I wanted to go to Holland but mehh wanna try something new so I went to Clementi instead. I guess the sucky thing about eating alone, one of it that is, that it's hard to find a sear heh. Cause no one will be there to help you "chop" seat while you go get your food. But nevertheless I found one just now, and was sharing it with an old man just now haha.

Solitary lunch, solitary happiness.

Then went for the usual grocery shopping and yup that's all for my day out. It was a normal Sunday as usual. I had some works for Space done! I hope can continue further sooner or later heh. And then I went for a run! Okay now I learnt that I should go for a run latest by 530. 5 is a perfect timing. I went to run at about 450 just now and finished at about 530 or something like that. I went for a long walk after my run! Ran 5K today :D :D Actually more, about 5.6 heh.

So anyway I went for a new route today and I went for a run at the Sunset Way track! Not the Dover one. It's been like 7 YEARS since I ran there, or 8. Cause I remember I used to run there with my sister almost every Sunday morning there to train for our Napfa test. Yes a primary 5 kid running 2.4 for it haha. But nahh I was walking and running then :P

Somehwo it's quite funny cause I've always have the thought that it's 4.8 K in one way. So today I was thinking of running a 9.6 K through and back. But well I was surprised to know it's only 2.4 and the run was really great, my timing improved that's for sure, but I still need to improve. I'm almost there :) So yeah the weird thing was... When I was young I somehow feel that 2.4 K was such a long long and endless track that I was so happy to finish it.

I guess there are two possible reasons. One that I was still a kid, small body and the world looks so huge to me. And two... I'm a better runner! Mwahaha. Duh, I mean I wasn't really trained then right.

But it's just funny how much... The world has changed. How much I have changed. Being a kid, being a primary 5 kid. Oh and I even remember asking my sis to rush back home cause I want to watch Yu-Gi-Oh at channel i. Back then the channel still existed! Haha. And I love their weather forecast song. Now it's no longer here heh.

Oh well those were the good old days when I was still a young boy, still innocent and yeah. Cute. HAHAHA. Can't believe that it was 8 years ago. Now I'm in Poly, a grown up young adult and well, my chapter here in Poly is also coming to an end. Time flies.

Alright that's all for today! It's 12:11 now, I've been dragging to blog oh gosh. Shame on me. See you soon! Here's to an awesome week 5 ahead! Have an awesome week everyone :)

Sundown Lets Go!

 Sundown here we come!

It's passed 12 AM now, but again I want to blog int he content of a great Saturday! Hehe. Well the afternoon was not so great. It was great... Slacking around. Oh so lovely. But then NONE of my plans for the day was executed. I failed once again, but nevermind I guess, time has went by so I can't possibly return the clock can I? Whatever it is, I did have an awesome night though!

Anyway my plan for the day was to actually wake up like 10 AM, then do some of my "projects" hehe. Personal one that is. I ended up waking up at 1130 -_- oh man, but nevertheless I quickly rise and shine and then I went to yeah, start on my project. After about 30-45 minutes of lazying around in bed. Mehh. anyway so yep, I did one already. And it feels good! But my "major" one wasn't done :/ I want to do it tomorrow hehe.

You will see them soon.

At night I went to collect the Sundown race pack with Doreen, Yong An and Saeyeoh joined us too in the end! So did Alicia. Oh man now I really can't wait for the race! My second 10K marathon and I'm so excited about it haha. And best is that I'll be running with lots of friends! So yup. And I think I'll really enjoy running beside the Singapore night scenes. So gonna be exciting.

There's still two more weeks though. And I gotta keep on training and pushing! :)

Then we went for dinner at a new mall... I think, opposite Expo MRT. Well honestly speaking it was my first time today that I stopped at Expo and went inside there. Yes, I know, I'm slow. Dinner at Bagus haha, really yummy and it feels good to have a nice chat with the 4 of them again! So miss my GT :( Hope we can all gather once again in one fine day! :)

All of us head back home, but I went to meet Jes, WQ and Neal! It was a Korean restaurant and it's awesome haha. Should go there another time! And my first time drinking Soju with Weiqi! It's nice, since it's only 20% it's so much better than vodka, and we can drink shots without feeling bleargh. And I love their onion pancake! So yum yum. Will go back!

And to Neal all the best for your field camp! :)

Somehow I realised, as much as I love to simply laze around and do nothing on a Saturday, I feel that the more I do nothing, the more this sulky feeling will reach me. It's just... I don't know. One of the best things to do in life is to really laze around without feeling guilty, laze around because you want to, because you plan to. I have to make my weekends more meaningful I guess.

But the weather is playing too. As much as I would love to go out for a shoot, or simply wonder around and so on, sometimes the weather is just not on my side  and I can't do the things I planned to do either. Like today I wanted to go to ECP before meeting Yong An and Doreen. Firstly, I checked the weather online and it says it was going to be rainy from 2-4 PM. Then I looked outside my window, it was cloudy and sunny at the same time. I feel so lost heh. I ended up not going.

Next few weekends I should e busy... So yeah I hope I can get to go to some places. I kept telling myself that I need a getaway. I need to go somewhere. But I never make it happen. And the only person that can make it happen is who else, but me.

Human nature. Or... My nature.

Oh well alright that's all for tonight. I'm going to have a great Sunday tomorrow! See you all soon, I seriously can't wait for Sundown! Though I might not beat my personal's best (PB), that doesn't mean I won't give me best shot in the race. Alright nights all!

We're all growing up.

Long week

 And this is part of the journey

It's Friday finally! Feels so glad to end the week. This long week. Well not long week in a sense it's actually longer than 7 days. Just that I feel I'm rather busy with work and feels so good to welcome the weekends! You know the feeling, of having a rough week then you have 2 days of break. Ahh so lovely! But well I've decided not to just waste them away. Spend it as meaningfully as possible.

I know it's crazy but yes I plan to wake up early tomorrow (like 9-10 AM heh) and yeah do some stuff. I got some "ongoing" projects that I "let's do it today!" and till now I haven't do it -.- So must do some of it tomorrow. And I'm going to take the Sundown racepack tomorrow with Doreen and Yong An! Arggh feels unprepared. Two weeks left! I can do this (Y). I need to run more at night... Hmm.

But I don't think it'll make a huge difference really. But must get used to it hehe.

Haha today Vithya was so funny. She's more paranoid than me!! I swear hahaha. After work I went to meet Brenda! OMG it's been such a long time since we met, and we talked. So we had a nice chat in Starbucks and we're off! She went home and I went to meet Vithya hehe. Went to accompany her to look for a nice gift for her mum in celebration of mother's day! :) Hope she likes it.

It's kinda weird to know that in Singapore, mother's day falls on this Sunday cause back in Indonesia, it's the 22nd of January. And well... We don't really "celebrate" it like here. Went for dinner or something like that. It's a national thing though. But well I think we celebrate my mum's birthday more heh. Whatever the case is, whether we celebrate it or not, we give present or not, it's the love for our mothers that matter the most.

Celebration, is just the icing on the cake you can say hehe.

Anyway today is the 11th of May. Somehow today speaks to me. The date, it shouts to me. As if there's some sort of significance. But it's just a Friday, what's special about it?

Well 365 days ago, is the day where I went for my Inner Mongolia OCIP as I found out. Somehow... It's just weird. It's just weird cause I totally forgot the date, until I read my blog again. Well. Yeah funny isn't it. Memories speak to me like wordless stories that whispers words to my ears.

365 days ago. A great journey begins.

365 days later. The journey still continues.

Finish line?

 Yesterday's sunrise. So pretty

It's Thursday once again! And it's been an awesome one I guess. And a tiring one as well. Mentally. Well this is not the first time this is happening to me. You know the usual brain-frying experience you get from reading too many articles that are confusing and difficult to digest. But oh well. I can do this! Why can't I right? Need to plan, a workflow, a flow where I can flow through and so on. Gonna be lovely.

It's all in the mind :)

After work I went to band as usual. Met Chris first for dinner, I finally had the new KFC double down! It's so divinely.... Fattening. But once in a while. Plus I just want to eat it to give it a try as I've been wanting to eat it! Haha. Well after first try, okay that will be a double down for the next long long time. It's really good though heh. Cause I'm less of a bun person but more of a meat person. Ask my friends, they should get it.

Cause I eat burgers part by part! The bun first, then the meat.

Band was great. And tiring. An Chun was teaching us techniques about breathing and listening and it's really fun haha. I think he can be a great conductor/instructor one day. And I can't believe it but I PLAYED 1812!!! When I first heard that song back in sec one or something like that, I wished there's a "simplified" band version of this song but. NO. We're playing the real deal haha. It was really... Tiring. But such a great piece. Plus it's from one of my favourite composers Tchaikovsky :)

It will really be a great piece for MD. A great and brilliant peace to end this journey that I've been traveling with and venturing about. Yes I know, I might not be continuing band after poly. I will let fate decide. But as much as I can be, I'll continue it. I might end this journey, but my love for music will never cease till I die. That's a promise. No, that's my life heh.

Somehow it's quite funny that these few days I've been realising that well, things are coming to an end. My poly life that is. FYP, IBM, MD XXXVI, year 3, school, being a station master in band camp and so on. Nothing lasts forever, we all know that. Though these "physical" things might come to an end, and will surely come to an end, the memories, the lessons, the JOURNEYS, will never end.

Like a foetus in the womb who can't stay forever inside his mother's uterus, everything will one one day come to an end, like a pregnancy. And like life. But some things will remain. Be it inside us, or continue to remain in the inside of someone. Okay the first sentence was taken from a video in Youtube about Tibetan sky burial. Hehe. I'm just using it as an example here.

It's like a race we've been running through. Perhaps, say a 10 KM run, and now we're at the 7th-8th KM mark? Or even like the 1KM mark. And we can see the finishing line. All we have to do us to keep on running to reach it. It might be tiring after the 9 KM we've ventured. But at the end, you know this race will be a great one for you. Though you leave with bittersweet memories, you have it with yourself, stories of victories. In this great race we run.

Part of me wish for time to fly faster. Part of me wish time to fly slower. I'll let time fly, I can't control it. All I want is for it to fly meaningfully in this last 9 months I have in polytechnic (minus the acad-year end holiday). And for it to fly meaningfully, only I can do it.

Good night.

Getaway

 Today was a fine, fine day

Yes I need a getaway. Anywhere, anytime haha. Just go somewhere and enjoy myself to the fullest! I'm planning to go for one in Saturday. Guess where? MacRitchie! Hahaha. Or somewhere else. I don't know, maybe take some photos. And just go out and so on. It will be awesome isn't it. Just let go of everything and enjoy myself and free flow and unwind. Hmm hmm?

Today was a great day I guess. Quite a sad and bittersweet and happy one too. Been reading on cervical cancer today as I'm tasked to do so. Very happy cause I got most of the information needed! Tomorrow I'll continue a bit more and write a more proper information on my notebook. Cause currently my paper is just... Messy and unreadable and ununderstandable in the eyes of others. But not me.

I didn't know reading articles could get so personal. Well... Reading about cancer today reminds me of my late aunt. Somehow her conditions match this article I'm reading. It feels weirdly horrible to realise how, the more things you understand about a certain conditions, the scarier things get for you. But... Well I guess this is life. There's only one truth it has. Not many truths. Just one in every situation we face.

And when the truth ravels, it might be ugly, it might be pretty. But that's the truth.

So after school I went to meet Shihui to pass her some postcards! Thanks Shihui for the keychain and the postcard too ^^ Don't worry I think my postcard is coming... Or came. I've yet to ask my guardian's maid. Then after that I went for a talk on forensic science by Julie Edgar from the Northumbria University in Newcastle! It was a really enriching talk. I get to know how CSI work haha. And oh man it's really mind blowing! But at the same time awesome :D

And we were also briefed a little about continuing our education in the university. One year BSc! Damn it's really tempting. But I'll make full consideration first. Cause the price is quite high, but at the same time it's really worth it too. So yeah... Oh well I'll think about it.

And the great thing that happened? It's like we're having a mini DBS 1.5 outing just now! So awesome :D Man it felt like as if we were back to the year one days. But of course with an older and wiser age, but the memories remain. And to think we only have one more year to our polytechnic life... It feels so weird and scary and shocking at the same time. It feels good to reunite back though!

Alright that's all for today. I wanna head to bed early. Yesterday I went to bed late and I woke up late today oh dear haha. Time to catch up some sleep hehe. Alrighty see you! :)

I want to go for a getaway
Even though it's only for a day 

And happy birthday to my sister! :D

Sunday night

A taste of home, away from home

I hate this feeling. I guess, it's the Sunday night feeling. The feeling of knowing you have work tomorrow. That the weekend is over and another week is waiting. Well I guess everyone will have this feeling on Sunday nights. Unless you really love your job that you hate the weekend. Which I think is something rather impossible of happening. But anyway, as Buddha says, the mind is everything and what we think we become. The more you dread the new week the more horrible your week will be! So be happy~

But anyway yes, I don't know why buy I'm feeling rather emo just now. Just out of a sudden. Perhaps it's my monthly PMS period. It's the hormones playing tricks in my body. Perhaps it's the song that I found yesterday (look below, on the previous day post). Been listening to it and well it makes me sad. But it's so good! I keep on listening to it haha.

And recently I've just re-discover my love for Sarah Brightman's Harem album! I bought it again cause I think the album is lost somewhere in my house back in Indo. Somewhere there. So I decided to buy a new one (and thankfully it was like the last one on the shelf!) and sigh, brings back memories and I really love Sarah Brightman. She's beautiful, her voice is beautiful and the songs are beautiful. Beautiful beautiful beautiful heh.

I remember that time... I think it was secondary 1 or 2 when my dad always play the song in the car when we go out. And there was a time when we went to Pelabuhan Ratu, and there was no CD except for Harem. So we played it throughout our journey and it was really pleasant :) So these songs remind me of those days. The first time I fell in love with her songs.

Music and memories, are like cookies and cream.

Especially the song "Beautiful" from the Harem album. The lyric goes like:

If you can depend, on certainty 
Count it out and weigh it up again
You can be sure
You've reached the end
And still you don't feel  

Do you know, you're beautiful?
You are, yes you are, yes you are

If you can ignore, what you've become
Take it out and see it die again
You can be here
So who's a friend
And still you don't feel 

I love the 2nd verse a lot. I don't know but the words are really special and unique. If you can ignore what you've become, take it out and see it die again. Well if only we can do that. Take out what we hate from us now, and go back to what we used to be. But of course we can't. I mean we can change, but not in a snap of a finger.

Then comes the chorus which goes like: Do you know, you're beautiful? I think it goes to show like how much we have to embrace us, ourselves, as of who we are. We're all imperfect creatures. There's part of us we hate and part of us we love. But these imperfections are the ones that make us human. Human without imperfections... Are not human heh.

Alright I guess that's all for now. I'm meeting Nivedha for breakfast tomorrow so gonna head to bed now! See you all and have a great week ahead! And here's to an awesome week-4 of my attachment! :)

It's all in the mind. I can do this :)